Tuesday, August 9, 2016

Pay To Live

I push myself too hard at times,
That’s where I find myself today.
Given all to be nothing.
Going nowhere when I leave.
It’s absurd to pay my life to live,
When all that I want
doesn’t even cost a thing.

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Smile Once For Me


Smile once for me,
let loose, those lips that curve in a contagious way,
I hope it was something I said.
Can I get that bend to repeat itself?
Can I make it sustain?
Smile with me,
as we create our own inside jokes.
Come with me, take my hand and hold it tight.
Let’s fall in love and never cease this grinning.
Let’s hold onto this feeling of falling
as a smile for the both of us.
Never take agreeing-hearts for granted,
or everything stops spinning. 
Smile once for me,
when we both can’t help ourselves from feeling,
even in a letter let me remember that giggle.
I smile for you,
because of you.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Ten Steps at a Pace


Take me ten steps at a pace,
a shot of bourbon, and an arm around your waist.
A twenty-inch smile,
as we coast at dusk to desert, a curve for each mile.
Give an ounce of trust,
that we’ll move on up, as we dwell,
on how many times we fell.
It’ll seem like we must,
or at least try to adjust, this small journey of love.
In a day, or one last year,
it’ll all come down,
to time will tell.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Green Eye Haiku

Green eyes smile wise
like Einstein was a pupil
Big, bright, wide, perfect

Friday, January 14, 2011

It’s Three O’ clock


It’s Three O’ clock!
Where are you?
I’m awake laughing like life is just a joke!
All alone,
not a soul to hear me moan,
and for once life is good.
Achieved without a toke.
In this mean old world,
where blue is a normal tone,
let's grasp to what we can hold.
Today,
before the cock crows,
I found color in the dark callus of night,
and all you poor fuckers were asleep before midnight.
Wrapped up in falsities for warmth.
Just think I could’ve been you,
and missed out on late life.
Well rested but colorblind.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

I smile


The yawning moon hugs us to earth,
I smile at you spinning in the falling cold.
Arms outstretched, disregarding the snow.
You orbit, catching snowflakes with an open mouth;
Tongue at an, “Ahhhhhhh.”
Kissing to keep warm in the frozen sunrise,
you laugh, as I do the same.

The arctic morning chill wakes us.
Silent, as our kisses lay still in the dropped snow.
Your hair lays black in shadows and curls with the turning wind,
it whips wild, grabbing the gusting breeze.
Each dying spin, lays it straight, dawning your collar with a grin.

Stars shimmer for their last time this winter,
you swirl with a laugh,
as gloved-hands catch each other in a giggling fall;
Landing soft as silhouetted angels.
You smile,
and I do the same.

Monday, December 27, 2010

Heroes Get Roses

Heroes get roses.
Champions on horseback ride.
Give them a reason to cheer.
Let them find their feet.

Heroes win roses.
Cause applause.
Sometimes on deaf ears,
They've won a true prize.

Heroes never listen to praises
A rose makes no sound.
Hands clap in vein,
A hero knows no fame.

Heroes don't get roses
Never care to hear applause
Don't need a medal to rise


Heroes Get Roses

Heroes get roses.
Champions on horseback ride.
Give them a reason to cheer.
Let them find their feet.

Heroes win roses.
Cause applause.
Sometimes on deaf ears,
They've won a true prize.

Heroes never listen to praises
A rose makes no sound.
Hands clap in vein,
A hero knows no fame.

Heroes don't get roses
Never care to hear applause
Don't need a medal to rise


Sunday, December 26, 2010

Silent Night on a Hill

Silent night on a hill,
Christmas eve and I’m still;
Motionlessly waiting for peace,
Quietly in the few minutes
before the holiday sunrise.
The Christmas spirit exists
in a few ticks, it’s there and gone,
while consumed sleepers' sleep.
The street-stained snow gets covered again,
greeted with a new coat.
Solitarily that feeling erupts,
That tranquil beauty materializes,
taking hold to warm a few lucky hearts.
Until that boisterous morning unwraps itself,
and that stillness disappears
regrettably lost in reality for another year.

Friday, December 10, 2010

Lies as an Extra


Couldn’t I do more than listen?
Shouldn’t I be spending my time in silence?
If all my words are shouted,
would it hurt to whisper?
Lost on falsities my lips wondered,
maybe a whimper of truth leaked
and got hungry.
Scenes dissatisfy my tastes,
I enjoy confusion.
It didn’t make a difference,
when all is cut to illusion.

Monday, December 6, 2010

Religion Philosophy Theories Thoughts


Religion is a personal walk
Philosophy is lost facts
Theory is lonely assumptions
Thoughts are a shot in the dark

Quiet Creek


Is there love to be won?
Am I dancing with an old flame?
Hands cleansed are now ready to get dirty again
Pretending to find the sun
It's only because of you that I smile
Remembering those nights as owls
Wrapped in each others feathers
Ruffling the branches that we keep to a quiet creek.

Oh, Lonely Moon


Oh lonely moon, generous moon,
I’ve been a fool,
When I gazed out my window looking for the sun’s light
I watched it retreat and it gave me fright.
Ignorantly, I thought the only assisting hand was that of the large star
But my life has remained in your presence
I’ve spent so much time looking for that heat
I rest in bed, giving up without some escort to help
You have been there, unselfishly asking for nothing
I never accepted your friendship shafting light on my path
My dreariness shaded my vision of a true companion.

Oh, lonely moon, caring moon,
I apologize for taking your glow for granted
In my darkened days you’re all that lights my way
Your pallor sits with the stars, kindly lifting my spirits
In my lonesome nights you’re the only radiance I see
and I, thoughtlessly, use your glance to search for the sun’s warmth
I took advantage of your shine in my gloom
Your frown steers the course before me
My friend, my pale acquaintance,
You who have listened to my every trouble and never forgot me.
You're the company I needed in the bleak lightless nights but I chased another.

Oh, lonely moon, considerate moon,
Out my window on dreadfully friendless evenings,
when all I wanted was to sense the sun’s luminance.
Before me was a reflection bouncing off the black cold darkness
Your dim shine was vigorously extending a hand in front of me.
Staring me in the face, I never reached out before
My back to you I ran looking for the sun’s embrace
It was you who never asked for a return.

Oh, lonely moon, compassionate moon,
My friend, my guide,
Your sadness echoes in me now
My cold shoulder to you, I left you lonely
My daunting acceptance to your kindness
Your understanding is overwhelming
My self-seeking importance drifts away with your sympathetic view
Forgive me for my apathetic outlook of reality
And know that my time in a lack of light will no longer be spent alone.

Saturday, November 27, 2010

So I’ll Sit


So I’ll sit,
and watch the sun rise
again…
alone again,
and it won’t matter
if its optimistic face smiles,
it doesn’t matter.
It won’t bother me,
if that companioned champion star
stands out at all…
it doesn’t bother me.
I’m almost convinced,
it’ll ascend once again.
For someone else,
maybe,
but,
one morning,
its crown will glare for it’s last time,
and I don't care.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Flashing Scene


The cold harsh light of people’s stares, cause the brim of my hat to be lowered and my steps to move backwards, silently into the sinister background of night. The bulbs burst onto a flashing scene, mocking friends that pester me. In the shadows, that are now my ally, I watch, and I avoid to be seen as I recollect how I got here.
With a deliberate slow flowed step, I blended with the blistering gloom to follow a couple to be hunted. Down a narrow park path, a scarcely lit way, I stalked behind, watching the lovers from a stance a few yards away. When my heartached-instincts and jealous rage cohere they deceived my idle hand, “I cannot help but follow thy command.”
Leaving the lazy lamp lit lane for dim pastures, the hand-held lovers, strayed from the safety of the gravely trail. In my uncomfortable bleakness, these unknowingly lustful kissers fell into; an uncomfortable position to be stuck, with love and passion in the limbs of the night; but to pick a path such as mine to cross. “What better way to drop victim of the frozen hand of death than in the fiery arms of your love,” I voiced to myself in a misty breath.
A stones throw from my feet they took a seat, as I produced a silent cannon with a barrel as dark as the eyes I preyed with. Using a quiet sneak I placed my leather boot across the unsuspecting fool’s cheek. The crimson glimmered in the moonlight as I dropped the barrel in the breathless woman’s mouth muffling her hesitated scream instantly. While he squirmed in a cowardly way, I clicked a thick noise cocking the pistol’s hammer, nailing him to his footprints. I whispered, “You flee from your lover like no heart was ever involved, you take for granted the touch I’ve missed for so long.” I flicked my free wrist in a downward manner and he replied aptly, with a knee-bent stance he slumped to the ground. I instructed him to crawl and lie next to his terrified prize. “Kiss her,” I insisted. His face answered with surprise. “Place your lips upon hers and remain.” Puzzled their stares became and with a repeat of the verse in a more thunderous tone they complied.
With lips pressed, lying breast to breast, I laid the firearm to the back of his head. The look in her upward glancing tearfilled eyes was almost human, a look that seemed to ask me a question, “Why would you end us like this?” So I replied the inquiry loudly and directly to the open air, “If I were ever to be forced to meet my finish there is no other place I would rather be, than in the arms of someone who loved me.” Her fingers dug through his shirt and clutched tighter than their lips kissed, and tighter than the tears that streamed down her face. “I’ll give you to the night,” the last words heard. With a slight squeeze, a recoil kick, and a soundless boom, I placed round from back of his head and on through the back of hers, drilling a hot shell into dirt; I let them spend the remaining seconds in appreciation of a shared heart. Quickly, I disappeared into the frosty dark to avoid a flashing scene.

Arizona Sun


Did I dream
you were a tourist
in the Arizona sun?

Was it for that,
I thought we had a date
in two years time?

Was I awake
When the earthquake
rose up around me?

Did I fall asleep
As the sunlight died,
tired of waiting?

Saturday, November 20, 2010

My Old Room


If life doesn’t pick up soon,
I’m going back to clean my old room.
Where my parents can point out my many missteps.

The army ants,
fighting a never-ending battle, on my television set,
buzz, “Its time to move on out.”

Sometime ‘round noon,
as soon as I’m finally in the mood,
I’ll leave that pale space
for a nice calm spot;
Where I can warmly sit next to a fume-painted fireplace.

Once it has no more info to spit
I’ll make my way to a hollow basement of my subsistence.

Maybe later that day,
when everything’s ghost grey,
I’ll take on the labor costs of my misfortunes
and pay my hand drop
on top of my black cat,
purring her to bed.

When the night finally falls,
No one hears me at all.
I’ll count the herd to sleep,
thinking how tomorrow will carry me home.
Where I expect for impetus subsist to glisten,
even in the smallest shimmer, so my snores can echo in halls.

Friday, November 19, 2010

Small Town


Small town people in their small town ways
Small town thoughts in their small town days

Small town ideas and small town dreams
Small town jobs in their small town extremes

Small town parades and small town cheers
Small town lives and their small town fears

Small town squares and small town blocks
Small town minds in their small town box

Small town talk and small town prayers
Small town beliefs with small town cares

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Dust


Against belief, I have not turned to dust,
Not yet.
Those lies are a bust
Nothing but a threat.

It’s not just,
But that’s why it rains,
It’s why hearts rust,
It’s why hearts strain.
There’s little that can be done for lust.
Try as you might,
Run if you must,
Move away, or take flight.

It’s that yearning that makes decisions thrust,
Ignoring emotions that make the most sense;
Like a flower catching a winds’ gust,
Lying pressed against a white fence.

Outweigh greed with trust,
Against everything you’ve been told;
It’s how to live in the upper crust,
But it’s fools gold.

Sunday, October 31, 2010

I Don't Mind if You Forget Me


Pressed solely on my looks,
never getting far with what I see.

Don’t take me for granted,
It’s not naive to be free.

I don’t mind if you forget me,
I never knew myself.

It’s okay to regret me,
since that’s all I have left.

I don’t blame you if you don’t understand me,
I’ve sunk myself for less.

Who am I to say what you should do?
We’re nothing but nature’s creation.

I don’t mind if you forget me,
I may never of existed.